Dear friends,
It has been a while.. sorry for the delay. I guess my stories from everyday life have begun to seem relatively meaningless... I value them, but it seems silly to type out every interaction that I have.
Anyways.. last night was "America night" which consisted of North America, South America, and everything in between -- as was quoted from our show last night.
Our ethnic nights usually consist of a meal and a presentation from the countries that are represented.. Our menu was as follows:
Brazil -- Empanadas
Mexico -- Enchiladas
Bahamas -- Mac n Cheese
Canada -- Maple Fudge
USA -- PB & J, Ants on a log, Apples and PB, and Root Beer Floats!
It was a very fun evening.. but my friend Josh didn't have such a good time. He broke his collar bone yesterday while he was free-running. Which basically means... running where there are obstacles and trying to avoid them. I'm pretty sure he was jumping off a bridge when he landed on his collar bone.. (it was a rebrake.. not the first time he had done it). Hmm... reminds me of someone else I know.. hahaha.
For my day off today, I spent my time relaxing. I have been digging deeper spiritually. Many questions have been brought to the surface. I'm sure I will write more on the matters later, but I am still figuring things out. A lot of it has to do with my experiences deciding between going to Bethel or doing YWAM. I think that is about the time that I shut God out of my life. I decided what he wanted for me instead of consulting Him.. Therefore, I am realizing that I have guilt and shame in my path. It is an obstacle that is keeping me from intimacy with the Lord. If you guys could pray for that, that would be wonderful. I'm definitely feeling too prideful to go running back right now. I know my time will come.. I'm just not sure I'm ready for the tears.
That is where my title comes from.. "No guilt in life, no fear in death.. This is the power of Christ in me". I want that to be true in my life. Such great lyrics. :)
I also read from the book "The Search for Significance" today. There was a chapter on shame.. and it mentioned that God's answer to shame is regeneration -- new life. That because we have new life in Christ, we have no need to be ashamed of our past. Whether it be past actions.. or past decisions (in my case, to ignore God) God desires to give us new life in Christ. All of these things make perfect sense in my head, but I need to move it to my heart.
Anyways.. there is a little more of my journey. I am hoping to go run off to a beach volleyball game soon. :)
I'm missing Minnesota more than ever.. It is crazy. I love the mountains, but I have never realized how much I miss the lakes. And of course I miss all of you! :) No worries though, I will see you in a short 5ish weeks!
Love,
Krista